Thursday, May 10, 2012

Random thoughts: Yaoi



I want to like yaoi. I really do.

Unfortunately, it’s one of those concepts that sounds good on paper but in practice leads to lots of disappointment.

So what is it? It’s an acronym for Yama nashi, Ochi nashi, Imi nashi, or translated to English: No climax, no point, no meaning. It’s M/M erotica in manga (Japanese comic) form, with focus on the sex over the story.

I really tried to give yaoi a fair shake, and there are a few stories I really like (Black Sun is one, Crimson Spell is another). But most of them fit the definition a little too well-Most of yaoi is pure porn. That’s all. The stories are as flimsy as the well-hung UPS boy visiting the lonely housewife, and many yaoi “novels” are collections of short stories with very little in the way of actual story.

Not that there’s anything particularly wrong with that. Porn is fine. But yaoi has a few characteristic tropes that make me put most of it down in disgust.

First, there is the “gay for you” trope. This is when a character isn’t gay, but ends up being attracted to and having sex with a gay guy, while still self identifying as straight. Some people like the thrill of seeing straight guys act gay, but to me its just offputting, especially when the gay lifestyle is portrayed as weird or “taboo,” or the straight character insults the gay one. This happens often, and it has made me put more than one manga straight into the garbage pail. 

Another trope, and an even more common one, is the strict delineation of the uke and the seme, or the bottom and top, respectively. The uke is usually an overly effeminate, uncertain boy/man, while the seme is a hypermasculine, typically insensitive older male. These roles never change. This rigidity makes stories boring and repetitive, and after a while all the ukes and semes start to look the same.

Related to this, most of yaoi takes place in high school, or at least one of the characters is in high school. Fine for younger readers, but that skews way too young for me. I want to see something a little more interesting than stories of boys in high school. 

And another point related to this: Rape and dubious consent of the uke is very common. Not something I enjoy.

And lastly, yaoi almost never actually makes any attempt to portray what being gay is actually like, even if the story is actually set in a high school. I would be intrigued to read about what a gay Japanese high school boy experiences, and the kind of prejudices or support he faces, but those issues are never discussed. It’s nothing but pure fantasy.

Yaoi is great, for those who like it. Perhaps I expect too much of it. But it typically (with few exceptions) just disappoints me.

Slash, on the other hand, I enjoy a lot. Fanfic writers never disappoint. J

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Release Dates and New Story Excerpt!

Hey all,

So the release dates for each book in the WaterLord Trilogy are currently June, July and August 1st! Keep an eye out for them for your summer reads!

And to celebrate that, I got a new contract for a prequel to The Perils of Forgotten Pain. Were you curious about Overgrowth, and what happened on Earth that made humanity flee to space? You'll want to check out Remembrance.

Check out the sample first chapter below!


The war is over. The majority of humanity has fled the dying planet to live in space, leaving behind a chemical called Overgrowth that will speed up the restoration of the war torn world.
            Some were left behind, and not all by choice. As one chapter of humanity comes to a close, a soldier who thought he had nothing left and a historian who sees potential even in destruction will make a life out of what remains.


Chapter 1
            A man strode out of the forest, his blond hair gray in the ashy light of the streetlamps and the roiling fog, which clung like a cat to his legs. A loose hinge on the side of his tattered briefcase rattled lightly as he walked.
            “Got anything?” A leathery man held out a hand from the shadows, his voice creaking as he spoke. “Just a bit?” The tall man passed by without answering, and the beggar became lost in the fog.
            The man walked by metal structures, some of them leaning crazily to one side or the other and some standing firm. Flickering lights and fluorescent hums marked those that had survived, though the signs spelled only gibberish in the roiling mist. Pictures could still be made out, mostly of red lips, long legs and huge breasts. Words were unnecessary. The man turned down a narrow street, putting his back to the signs.
            There were no leaning buildings here, and the grit from the main street had amassed in full so that the man's footsteps crunched rather than clacked. Wooden buildings, dwarfed by the metal ones still visible in the skyline, promised light and food. Voices could be heard here, female and male, laughing uproariously at some common joke. The words here were etched or carved into the wood. The man took his chances on one, a sign that waved in the damp wind and promised “Bes Drosoph in the City.”
            A woman who's ribs showed through the skintight clothing she wore opened the door for him, a smile plastered on her face. “Lemme guess-pounds over pity?”
            The man nodded, the pupils of his blue eyes constricting painfully in the light. He didn't usually stay long in these places, where those who had been left behind scraped to live as they could, indulging in the glaring phosphorescence of the buildings that surrounded them.
            His feet thudded heavily on the wooden floorboards, and they creaked. No one looked up save for one young girl bedecked in plastic pearls, and she smiled at him as winningly as she could with a mouthful of graying teeth.
            The man looked away, focusing on the rough grain of the wood. A group of men to his right slapped their table, making the dishware rattle.
            “Over here, Nella!” The girl's wide hips swayed invitingly as she walked, the folds of her blue dress brushing the man's ear as she strode by. She turned to smile at him, a ruby rictus, before a long haired man grabbed her with one arm, pulling her into his lap.
            “You're good luck, beauty.” He chuckled, and she bit her lip as she adjusted herself to straddle the burly man's knee. His thick arm completely covered her waist, and she slumped in his grasp.
            The tall man turned away, carefully placing the battered briefcase under the table. For a time he closed his eyes, basked in the presence of other people, letting their conversations wash over him. He had traveled alone for a long time.
            “Ouch! Don't bite me!”
            “Four aces!”
            “Have you heard? Another youth gang hit the food stores.”
            “Oh really? Then why do we have this then?”
            “You think this is any good?! I shoulda ordered the pork. And this beer tastes like weasel piss.”
            “There are no weasels here, idiot.”
            Forks clanged on plates, feet tapped on the floor, and laughter rose and fell. Low voices discussed sweet nothings in the room above the lounge, and he tried to make out what they said.
            A tap on his shoulder finally stirred him from his concentration. “You can't sleep in here, you know. You need a room for that.” The slim hipped woman from before stood over him, a twang of annoyance in her voice hiding behind her plaster smile.
            “I'm merely relaxing,” he spoke, his voice a rasping whisper. “May I order a meal?”
            The woman blinked  long lashes in surprise at his voice, and her mouth turned down. “What do you want?”
            “The pork.”
            “To drink?”
            “Just water.”
            The woman sashayed away to fulfill the request. The man closed his eyes, letting the voices in the room wash over him once more, until a clatter at the table caught his attention.
            A dark haired man had sat down across from him.
            “What's your name?” he asked hurriedly, his voice pitched low.
            “Aldric.” The man answered, pain finally blooming in his throat as he spoke. He tensed as he watched the other man's eyes rove around the room like a hunted animal. His damaged, rasping voice, ordinarily offputting to the people he met, didn't seem to faze this one.
            “Alright, Aldric, just pretend you know me. Please? Just...talk.”
            “What about?” Aldric listened. There was nothing dangerous here that he could sense, no indication of what this man could be running from. Then again, with no real law enforcement, no structure since the end of the war save for one rule-survive as long as you can-a certain amount of paranoia was expected.
            “Where do you live around here? I don't recognize you.”
            Aldric sighed. “I am a traveler. I've come from...inland.”
            “A traveler?” Some of the tension left his companion, replaced with curiosity. “How far have you come?”
            Aldric looked away from the other man's gaze, watching as the woman who was supposed to be serving him water got waylaid by two men who stared at his new companion out of the corner of their eyes. One of them palmed the woman’s breasts, and the other whispered in her ear.  She smiled and her eyes met his. “A long way.”
            “I'd love to hear about your travels,” the man said, speaking just a bit louder to get his attention. Aldric shifted his gaze, wondering if his new table companion had noticed the two men. His eyes were fixed on Aldric. “No one here has ever left and come back.”
            “Is it...nice here?” Where had the two men gone? Now there was only the woman, filling the pitcher, and the other one, called Nella, shrieked as some other man tickled her.
            Finally the other man followed his gaze. “Look, I'll buy you a nice woman for the night if you just-”
            Aldric stood and caught the knife that had whistled through the air inches from the dark haired man's ear, the blade slicing through the fabric of his glove and then stopping. He turned and locked eyes with one of the men, the one who had whispered to the girl, who ran out the door. Voices quieted for only a moment before the buzz resumed. Something like this was not uncommon here.
            The dark haired man's eyes boggled. “Are...is your hand alright?” He reached for it, and Aldric snatched it away, pocketing the knife.
            “There's still one more. You should leave.”
            “Alone?” the man squeaked. “Why not come with me?” When Aldric narrowed his eyes, he continued, “If you're a traveler, you need a place to stay, and you've already saved my life once. Let me repay you? C’mon, I need your help.”
            Aldric raised an eyebrow. If he was desperate enough to be begging strangers... “Lead on then.”
            The two stood up together and headed out into the dirty night air. Aldric had not gotten his meal, or even a glass of water. At least he didn’t have to pay.
            As he followed the man, who walked hunched to hide himself, the dingy shops gave way to shacks and houses, gaping holes in the sides on some of them signaling either the presence of an inhabitant or lack of one. No shortage of housing here. Mud began to squelch around Aldric's boots as he walked further, and though the streets were more mired and pitted, at least the houses began to look nicer as they moved away from the heart of the city.
            Aldric watched his new companion closely. He had seen his like before, the same furtive, nervous walk that betrayed a long time of persecution, coupled with a strong desire to live. What did this man have to live for? Who targeted him? This curiosity led Aldric to walk silently behind Daniel, using years of training to accomplish the same vigilance that Daniel clumsily tried to perform.
            He sensed them long before Daniel did, and gave no sign of it. Three men and a dog. The dog attacked first, growls cutting the night, and Aldric stepped in front of its target, throwing him arm up as the animal leapt for Daniel.
            Teeth clamped down, and Aldric spun and threw the animal to the ground, shoulder muscles straining under the weight. With a pivot he faced the men who had begun to run toward them with clubs held high. The fingers of his right arm twitched, as though preparing to fire a gun he did not hold.
             The men slowed and stopped when they saw the dog limping away, realizing their ambush had failed. The two groups faced each other for a moment before the men shrank back into the shadows, scattering and disappearing behind houses and fallen wood.
            “Once again, thank you.” Daniel moved close to him, so close Aldric could smell his piney scent. He kept clean, too. Unusual in a place like this.
            “Is you arm alright?” Aldric took a step back, giving Daniel a firm nod. The man stared, his gaze fixed for a moment, before shrugging and turning.
            “Come on. We're almost there, and I don't think they'll try anything again tonight.”

            ***
            They crossed a muddy, pitted track that was once probably a creek or stream, the forest looming close and the lights and stink of the city receding. Fitting.
            “Here we are.” Daniel jogged up the steps of a stone house that looked to once have housed at least two families. Unlocking numerous deadbolts from keys on his belt, he thrust the heavy metal door open and waved Aldric inside. Fluorescent lights stung his eyes as he entered, ducking through the warped doorway. It looked almost like a bunker.
            “Let me see your hand. Take off your gloves.” Daniel moved toward him, arms outstretched.
            “No.” Aldric firmly stepped away. “I am fine.”
            “That dog bit you! I saw it! And the knife...” He trailed off in the face of Aldric's firm stare.
            “So you're really fine?” Aldric nodded, standing stiffly in the foyer.
            “Fine then. Well...I guess I owe you hospitality, and breakfast too, since you saved me twice. Do you want to sleep now, or maybe you could tell me about your-”
            “Sleep.” Aldric said gruffly, ignoring Daniel's disappointment. “Do you...have running water here?”
            “I do. There's a bathroom and sink down the hall. You can sleep here on the floor, or if you don't mind, we can share the bed in the other room.”
             The offer tempted him. Once such an offer would mean something, but now Aldric knew that sharing a bed was simply a necessity of the times, a comfortable place to sleep snatched whenever and wherever it could be. Even so...he couldn't risk it.
            “The floor is fine.”
            “Really? Well, if you're sure...”         
            “I am.”
            “Alright. I have extra blankets. There's no heat, but that hasn't been a problem for years now.” He flashed a sad smile. “I guess I'll head to bed. Um, thanks again for your help. I hope...I mean, well...”
            Aldric cocked his head, waiting.
            “It's nothing. I'll take you out for breakfast in the morning. Good night. Give me ten and then the bathroom is all yours.”
            Aldric ran a gloved hand through his hair, setting up his blankets into a makeshift bed on the floor. Daniel confused him, being kind-or perhaps desperate-enough to invite him into his home after having barely known him. Other people in his travels had rarely been so caring.
            It would certainly not last, so he may as well try to enjoy it. Aldric prepared for sleep after Daniel entered the bedroom, shutting the door behind him. Rummaging through his suitcase, Aldric moved his gun and tools out of the way and took out a change of clothes, then locked it up again. He slept in the clothes he had worn that day, down to the gloves. He would change in the morning, before Daniel awoke. It would not do if the other man saw him.
            Sleep came easily, unusual for Aldric.






Friday, March 23, 2012

Thursday, March 22, 2012

Another Contract!

Remember that epic fantasy excerpt? I just got the entire trilogy contracted by Extasy Books! I'll keep you all updated with release dates and cover art - which is already shaping up quite nicely!

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Epic Fantasy

I love epic fantasy.

Don't get me wrong, I love sci fi too, and all of what I've published falls into that genre. But I just finished editing an epic fantasy that I'm shopping at my publisher (cross your fingers,  everyone) and I also just finished reading A Way of Kings, so epic fantasy is on my mind at the moment.

First of all, everyone should read a Way of Kings. It's a fantastic novel.

Second, I figured I'd post an excerpt from my own epic fantasy (the story is M/M, but the excerpt here is clean). It was the first story I ever completed, and I've polished it since.

Enjoy!


“Nathan? What is it, are you okay?”
“Yeah, I just…It’s awfully humid, isn’t it?” Nathan looked at Sam expectantly, hoping that the other mage would have a reason for it.
Sam eyes widened as he reached the same realization. “It is. And the air didn’t move. I don’t work with weather, do you?”
Nathan remembered the captain’s warning from the day before. If anything odd were to occur, he was supposed to tell her. He didn’t much like the idea of being a messenger boy, but this qualified as a strange occurrence. He knew how the winds and atmosphere worked, and humidity did not simply appear out of nowhere like it just had. It took hours for water to saturate the air to this degree, not seconds. “We need to tell the captain.”
Sam followed on Nathan’s heels as the blond man strode purposefully toward the lower decks. “What do you think it is? Could it be the enemy ship? They’re so far ahead of us; I don’t see how it could be. Unless it’s another one of Auros’s ships for reinforcement against us.” Sam babbled nervously, and Nathan tried to tune him out. Sam’s voice only aggravated Nathan more.
“Where’s the captain!?” Nathan shouted down the first person he found in the hallway, who jumped at the sight of both mages rushing through the ship, one of whom carried a sword.
“Um, if she’s not in her quarters then I don’t know where she is. What’s wrong?” The man looked from Sam to Nathan and back. “Should I sound an alarm?”
As if in response, the ship lurched to one side, throwing Nathan forcefully to the ground. Sam’s sword clattered to the floor, and Nathan thought frantically about what could have caused this. Nothing logical came to mind. His heart leapt to his throat, and he tried to remember the battle tactics from the war.
“Mages, help!” The man shouted. The ship did not right itself, and the entire hallway slanted sharply. Sam slid ungracefully on his knees, and Nathan still lay on the floor on his stomach. If the ship had been hit, it would have bobbed back by now, and Nathan had not sensed an impact. Something far weirder was happening. He had dealt with fire mages before, but this was something completely new. His instincts told him to stay down.
“Mages, what’s happening!?” The man they had met in the hallway shrieked shrilly, and managed to get to his feet, stumbling on the uneven floor. “I’ll sound the alarm!”
Nathan didn’t have the chance to tell the man that sounding the alarm would be useless at this point before the ship slammed back, the strange force holding it down apparently gone.
Something smacked wetly, and Nathan turned. The poor man lay unconscious, blood trickling down at the point of impact against the wall, and Nathan found himself staring, slightly disturbed. That could have been him, yesterday.
“We need to get on deck!” Sam yelled, and Nathan tore his gaze away from the unfortunate man.
He ran down the hall ahead of Sam, filled with adrenaline. He didn’t know how he would fight this, or even if he could, and he struggled to think of a magic technique that could pitch a ship and hold it. Nothing came to mind.
An air mage couldn’t summon the impact to push over a ship without splintering it, much less have the strength to hold it down. Besides, Nathan would have sensed the use of air. Earth mages were almost powerless on water, and if it were a fire mage the ship would be burning by now. Could it be…No. Tom was dead. Another like him, perhaps? Nathan didn’t want to even consider it, and for a moment, he understood why fire mages would feel threatened by water.
 From the options, Nathan hoped it was a group of air mages that were hiding their tactics somehow. He didn’t want to think about the captain’s message about ships sinking without explanation. He didn’t want to be a victim of something he couldn’t fight.
The air mage burst through the doors that led to the deck, and stood momentarily stunned.
The rain drenched Nathan in seconds, and he could almost feel the weight of the water, as if someone was continually pouring a bucket on him. The force of the rain hurt, like tiny rocks hitting Nathan’s skin.
That at least ruled out the option of a fire mage. No fire mage would work in rain that made it hard to see a foot in front of you, and Nathan blinked hard, trying to clear his vision without success. The downpour burned his eyes with its force.
The air mage had never seen rain like this, though he had heard that some Lords dealt with monstrous storms that flooded entire islands. But those Lords ruled far from here.
 He hoped very much that this was not the work of a water mage, and he dared not voice his fear to Sam. Could Auros have water mages, and intend to begin the war anew?
“Nathan…what do we do?” Everything was quiet, despite the smack of the rain hitting the wood. Sam held his sword ready, but there didn’t seem to be anything to fight. There were no foreign ships in sight that enemy mages could work from. Nathan squinted against the rain. Clouds blackened the sky.
Nathan fought down the rising panic in his chest, and repeated to himself the battle mantra Archibald had taught him. Keep calm, breathe, and keep your senses sharp. Keep calm, breathe.
“We have to try to get rid of this rain…I don’t like it.” Nathan practically had to shout over the sound of the downpour.
“Are you stupid? This is probably natural, a freak storm or something. We shouldn’t worry.” Sam’s anxious tone and the viselike grip he held his sword with belied his words.
Nathan closed his eyes, ignoring Sam and beginning to work with the drenched air. It was harder with the intense rain, and he struggled to find a place to start. His concentration broke when the ship lurched again, and he cursed, trying to steady himself. Luckily, the ship did not stay slanted like it had before, and Nathan managed to stay on his feet, though barely.
“Nathan, over there!” Sam shook him, which didn’t help Nathan’s balance, and pointed towards the other side of the ship. “Listen!” Nathan heard nothing but the sounds of the rain until a harsh sound punctuated the silence. Someone was fighting…something.
Sam stood, apparently frozen with fear, holding his sword unsteadily at his side. “Is it something we can help with?” He obviously didn’t want it to be.
Nathan didn’t bother to respond, swallowing his fear and running toward the source of the noise. As a mage, it was his duty to protect others from magic that they couldn’t fight, and this was obviously something a mage would have to handle. He heard Sam curse and follow behind him.
Whatever had begun needed to be dealt with.
The rain obscured his vision and slowed him down, and Nathan had to rely on his knowledge of the ship as he moved forward. He suddenly stumbled, a sword skittering as he nearly fell over it. Why would a soldier drop their sword? And where was the soldier?
 “Which way, do you think?” Nathan asked Sam, who bit his lip.  
“How should I know?” Sam responded. Nathan looked away. They were wasting time! He listened hard for any more sounds of battle, but heard nothing. The rain made it impossible.
“Mages!” The captain’s harsh voice oriented him, and she appeared out of the rain, her hair plastered to her scalp. She kicked the sword further away angrily. “I have ordered the soldiers below deck, so you must solve this. What is going on?”
Sam looked fearfully at her.“ I-”
A high pitched scream stopped him. Conversation abandoned, they began to run toward the sound. He sensed Sam using magic, a shielding technique.
The woman screamed again, and as he turned his head toward the sound he was suddenly hit with a thick, warm liquid, and the coppery scent of blood filled his nostrils. Something thudded nearby and he froze, suddenly terrified, almost uncaring of the blood that now stained his clothing and dripped off his face. Someone had been attacked beside him, and he hadn’t seen it. Why couldn’t he see anything!? He took a step back, preparing to run the other way. His whole body vibrated in fear, the calming mantra forgotten.
            “Nathan!” Sam suddenly appeared beside him, and grabbed his shoulder. “Focus, you idiot!” Why could he see Sam clearly through the rain? “Nathan, put up a shield! She needs help!”
The rational idea made its way into Nathan’s panicky brain, and he did so. Calm came over him once the rain no longer struck, and he drew in deep breaths of dryer air to relax. He could see clearly in the radius of the shield. He realized he was covered in blood and told himself to ignore it, extending his shield to cover more ground.
            The shield was incredibly difficult to hold with the rain pounding it, and he only maintained it for a second before pulling it back to cover the bare minimum. He saw a person fallen in that instant, a woman who lay prone, her eyes open in shock and a hand over a gaping injury on her side. Her sword, too, lay beside her, as though she had never even attempted to lift it.
A long distance attack, then. The shield would be useful, if he could defend against both the rain and whatever occurred. He told himself to be detached. He couldn’t afford to panic again.
 “Clarise!” Sam bellowed and ran to the fallen woman’s side, nearly falling on the watery deck. “Clarise, what was it? Talk to me, please!”
The captain narrowed her eyes, and moved to help, or perhaps just to get information from the injured woman. Nathan tried to extend the shield over her, and at the same moment some force skittered alongside it, a red line appearing on the Captain’s side and doubling her over.
She gasped and lost her footing. Blood dripped on the deck before she leapt back to her feet. His shield had saved her, but she still staggered with the injury. “To the right!”
She gestured with her sword, and Nathan extended his shield to cover the area where she pointed. He thought something brushed it, but it vanished.
That unnerved him. Whatever they fought knew about magic, and had dodged out of the range of his shield. It wanted the cover of the rain. He held the shield, looking around, as the captain held her ground. She bled onto the deck, but stood resolutely on her feet. For a moment, everything stood still.
“Damnit, cover more!” She screamed at him, her voice almost breaking with the effort of yelling, or perhaps pain. Nathan complied.
Nathan barely saw the movement as his quickly expanding shield uncovered the man. He was unarmed, and moved impossibly fast to escape the shield, but the captain moved to intercept him even faster.
Her sword slashed at the same moment that a spike of water beneath her feet toppled her. The sword missed and she went down one knee, the blood from both wounds mingling with the water beneath her. She did not move to get up, her chest heaving. In the moment that they stood there, Nathan was so stunned that he dropped the shield.
The man was naked, and had long brown hair that fell down to his waist. He was tall, though not quite as tall as Nathan, with defined muscles that signaled dangerous predatory strength. He had almost no expression, as if attempting to kill a captain was a matter of course for him. One of his eyes was a milky white, the skin around it whitened, attesting to a previous burn. The other blazed blue.
Tom.

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

New Release!

The conclusion to The Perils of Forgotten Pain is now released!

Nothing is more important to a soldier than loyalty.


Herman has overcome illness and discovered much about the society he used to fight for that unnerves him. Now he must ultimately decide where his loyalties lie-with the space dwelling society who designed him
to be an efficient killer, or with Blaze, a kind man who tells him that he should take the opportunity to live on his own terms.


Check it out now at Extasy Books!

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Same sex is just too much


I’m not a member of the Romance Writers of America. I’m a bit too new, and too young, to be able to afford to pay dues. It was something I had hoped to do in the future, though.

Until this happened. Same sex is just too much? Too much for what?

This is just absolutely appalling in my eyes. First Amazon pulls yaoi titles from the Kindle, now this. I don’t understand how we can make such leaps forward politically (gay marriage was legalized in NY just this past summer) and yet have entire organizations backpedal so hard when it comes to accepting such things in our culture.

One day we won’t be niche anymore. Maybe that’s what they’re so afraid of.